Daily Journal: facial feminization surgery

so here I am, and damn I like looking like this

it’s a funny thing, haircut day. Even before transition I really looked forward to haircut and beard trim day. It doesn’t make me dysphoric to think about that joy. I love the moment of transformation and I love sitting with someone who cares about helping you through that transition.

So naturally, on haircut morning, I felt great. And what I’ve learned about the days I feel great, is to take huge advantage of them. To feel every new curve in my body, to look at every strand of hair falling around my neck, to feel the way my skin has changed, to pose in ways I never have before.

It’s really powerful to be able create a space to make yourself feel good. To be able to see parts of yourself that are sexy and fun and to be able to look at one small part of your body and think of how cute it is or to even look at a whole photo and think “wow, I never thought I’d get here.”

I want to share these pictures of me because I’m so proud. Of the work I’ve done to get here and because damn it, it’s just part of me that wants to be shown so, so bad. Do I know why? Not entirely, but I do. And I have many ideas as to why other people might think I should not show a body that looks like mine, and I’m not interested in any of those.

So here I am, and damn I love looking like this.